I am not really sure when i forgot about it…forgot about me. You know, people have role models and identities that are rooted somewhere. There is a reason why you like a band, a kind of music, a movie, a beverage or whatever. I just forgot. At some point I just forgot. (or mixed them all togehter, not sure actually) I guess the constant need to be someone in different aspects of my life made me forget. I guess its kind of a schizophrenic thing. I want to be that kind of person at one point and the next I want to be someone completely different. I know what some people think, that is just how everyday life works but I am afraid that it does not. I feel the need to find a way to measure and see where I go. Well to be honest, blogging about this shit will not help but maybe it will help me to monitor where I am and where I want to be…